Happy Sunday!!!! Today seems super fitting for this post :-) Most of you reading this know that I stay pretty busy balancing just about any and everything, but even though it seems like I always have everything under control, there are plenty of times when I feel super overwhelmed and just want to retreat and hide away from the world. For most of the month of September I felt this way, but I was too busy to really focus on it (not sure if that’s a good thing or not, lol). The funny thing is that when I tried to tell people this, they didn’t believe me because I didn’t “look” like anything was wrong with me and I was still handling everything without any issues. Looking back I was pretty much just stressing out for no reason at all, but it still would have been nice to sulk and have someone be my support for a change instead of the other way around.
Anyway, this past week I attended a Christian Medical & Dental Association (CMDA) meeting, and it gave me just what I needed to get back into focus. I don’t know if I’ve ever shared this on the blog, but my absolute favorite bible verse comes from Philippians 4:6-7. It’s what I read before every exam, whenever I feel stressed, and during times when I start to doubt myself. I bring this up because it’s rare that I’m able to attend CMDA meetings (because they usually conflict with other organization meetings that I serve as officer in) and at the start of the meeting a paper was passed out, and my favorite scripture was at the very top of the page! The topic of discussion was “How to Counter Negative Self-Talk”, and it was exactly what I needed to hear because sometimes I can be my own biggest enemy.
In medical school especially, it’s easy to feel like you’re not good enough to be there or that you might fail, but at the end of the day it is important to remember who is ultimately in charge. Although I know that it is possible for us to give ourselves more than we can bear, I know that God will not. My main priority is to work hard and continue to develop my gifts so that I can contribute to the world and one day be a blessing to others. I know that the road won’t always be an easy one, but knowing that I am working towards my calling, and that giving up is the only way I can truly fail, helps me push through. For me, it is important to always keep in mind that everything lies in God’s hands, so I will continue to work hard and let everything else fall in place.
I posted the above picture with bible verses as a reminder to myself to remain positive whenever I start to feel the negativity creep in, but I hope it helps some of you in the same way it has helped me :-)
|Random pic, but I looked really cute on Friday, LOL!|
I definitely needed this post, self doubt is a struggle, but one what we can overcome, thanks for your insight. Keep up the fantastic work you are doing, both in school and out!ReplyDelete
Thank you, and glad it could help :-)Delete
Yes...so beautifully said and I am so glad to have read it. Often times people are too arogant to be their bare selves. Also vulnerability is a human trait that God has created for us to depend on him. Persevere my sister. .rooting for you all the way. ...and yes you look very nice in the pink dress...ReplyDelete
I really appreciate it, and thank you for the compliment! :-)Delete
Great post and right on time too!!! Yaaasssss ain't nuthin' wrong with being a med student on fleek!!ReplyDelete
Hehehe I think that's the first time I've ever seen "med student" and "fleek" in the same sentence! Thanks for the smile and for still keeping up with my random thoughts :-)Delete